Putting my foot in it...

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 18:00:07 GMT

Ever had one of those days where you just get it wrong? Even though, with completely the best intentions, you totally meant to help a situation, not make it worse. But then you see that your timing sucked and you really should have thought more about what you were doing. And now? You've just made a mess.

That's what I did today, and the worst thing is, it was over something really petty too. I was talking a bit about love to my boyfriend, with little response from him. A little irritated, because I'm not one for a lack of communication, and it was on a really important topic to me. So later I sent him a text saying I was a little upset. Angry wasn't the word- I wasn't at all mad at him or anything like that. It was more that I felt as part of being in a relationship, I should communicate my needs, for communication is really important. I just wanted him to know I cared I guess, and that I felt he didn't care. The thing is, I really thought it was a good thing to do as well.

Big, stupid mistake. Got a very angry text from the bf telling me not to have a go at him, since he had been wrorking all evening, felt ill, and in general had just had a crappy week, and yeah. And then actually I realised that what I'd said had only really been for the good of me, not for the good of him. Aaah. I said sorry, and just ended up feeling all guilty till late that evening, when I finally decided to go to sleep.

Even though its all appeared to have blown over now, I still feel like such an idiot. I ask God to help me bring the best of myself into my relationship, but all the time I just end up not doing it. May there be hope for me yet!

xxx

First post....

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 16:13:31 GMT

Well, this is my first post I guess! This blog is nothing special really, it's just a chance for me to express how I feel in my relationship with God, my life and everything it seems to throw in my way. As a Christian I'm pretty bad when it comes to actually looking at the Bible and stuff so I'm hoping this will help me to reflect a bit more frequently!

I don't think anything here will be that profound or awe-inspiring though! There are some Christians who seem to be so incredibly perfect, and if you ever read their stuff you cant help but feel as they are some strange superhumans who are in a totally different league from anything you can achieve. Well, I am never gonna be one of those. Nor do I think I want to be. I shall for definite be writing about all my confusion, questions, mistakes and all that. Aside from Jesus of course, its the imperfect people who I think we relate to most, not those who seem faultless.

So yeah. This is basically just the rambling and musing of an 18 year old Brit called Gracie. Let's see how it goes!

xxx

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Putting my foot in it...

First post....